Every January, I find myself pining over lost time and focusing on unmet goals. I sit there wondering exactly what it is I did the year before … well, I guess I really sit there wondering what I didn’t do. But 2011 was different. I may not have met all my goals, but I learned a lot about myself. Having started a health and wellness blog (poppyonakite.com), I initially focused on my journey back to a healthy weight. I was so set on a numeric goal (lower BMI) I lost sight of what I was learning in the process. After all, my weight is just a counterpart of the issues I failed to see head on. And those issues became clear. I had stopped living a healthy lifestyle because I’d forgotten to take care of myself. I’d become too busy and overwhelmed with the “more important” things in life, like caring for others and my career goals. Then I realized that to be truly healthy I had to learn to love myself – which in the process meant being realistic about my goals and ideals. For me, that meant focusing on the successes and not the failures – and in the process, discovering how difficult change can be. Yes in the past five years I’ve gotten married, moved to a new country and had a baby. That’s a lot of change. But it wasn’t me changing so much as my circumstances and environment. Of course these events all changed me as a person too, but not with my direct knowledge. And this year I’m giving myself a chance to make changes I control like eating better, exercising and spending more time with loved ones. It’s not easy to give yourself a chance and take the time and energy you need to be healthier person physically, mentally and emotionally. Health goals shouldn’t just be about your physical self. Your mindset is what carries you through life. So with a freshness I’ve never had before, I’m entering into 2012 with no resolutions other than to be good to myself. And being good to myself means giving myself the opportunity to grow, discover, change, learn, play, laugh and just be me.
Suban Nur Cooley
Suban Nur Cooley is a young communications professional and writer in the Greater Lansing region, who currently works for Capital Gains and the Refugee Development Center. She is also a proud Australian expatriate and Lansing homeowner.